this sucked

I don’t want to make you miss me any more than you already do

I have some hard days sometimes and you do too

I wish you were here in my arms but I’m a world away at this desk in front of this damn book

I’d talk to you on the phone every night if that’s all it took

But it seems that you worry about me all day long and it makes me wonder and worry too

About the ups and downs and if it’s best that I stay with you

Life is going on and on and we can’t make it stop

But you can only keep going until your mood drops

And you say you can’t help it but I wish, I could

Just turn it all around, and then you’d smile I wish you would

I guess I just wanna say don’t worry so much

Because when you worry, I worry and we lose touch

With emotions that keep us hopeful

Because when we’re apart I feel a pull

Marriage

Something from hella long ago:

Here's my new thesis: Some people want to get married because, they want to believe that their love will conquer their adversities. They want to believe that they'll have enough time in this world to show each other all the love in their hearts. I feel that this might be the reason because, I used to say to myself that i wish i had just one day to show you, just how much i love you, and then i saw, time and time again that one day is nowhere near enough time. It might take weeks, or months or years or even a lifetime. Of course you can't call it, nothing in our futures can be fully predicted but i feel like it's a form of hope, like making a promise to build a house together with their hearts, and though it's not perfect, that's the point, we promise to be human to each other, the difficulty adds onto it's value.

Hey First blog

Yeah i got sick of Xanga, and i've found that i haven't blogged in a long time so I thought maybe I'd start blogging again in a new account. I'm sure no one's reading this anytime soon but to anyone who eventually finds this Hi! how're you? haha